Don’t Hate Me Cause I am Brown

“Don’t hate me ’cause I’m brown”

A good friend of mine post a photo of brown sugar with the quotation written above on my Facebook wall. It was a joke, of course, and this kind of a joke made me laugh.

I grew up in a neighborhood, with  a very popular name, “Negre” or Negra in Tagalog. That name was usually given to girls with dark/brown skin and curly hair. I was not sure if that was bullying, but I was only sure of one thing, that name gave me lots of insecurities about myself.

I used to question the Lord why He gave this kind of complexion and hair style. There could be a mistake! I wonder what went wrong when God made me.

The Black and White Effect

I remembered when I asked my mother to buy a whitening lotion for me. I was in desperate situation then. I want to have a fair skin. I also remembered changing my shampoo brand every week, believing that this and that shampoo will make my hair long, soft and STRAIGHT. But it never happened.

Incidentally, I cannot use all those kind of whitening soaps that were being advertise in all the television channel. I have this special skin condition (a.k.a skin asthma) that led me to visit the Derma Clinic a lot when I was young. I need to consult my dermatologist first before using any brand of soap and lotion, sadly, a whitening product is a big NO NO NO.

Grown Old With You

I praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; marvellous are thy work; and that my soul knoweth right well — Psalm 139:14

 

I cannot remember when I’ve learned to accept myself. I just woke up one day and realized that “God, you are so wise to be mistaken! You made me like this-brown skin and curly hair-exactly want  You wants me to be. I am beautiful because I am Your daughter”.

We are made for a reason, and we are made exactly as what He wants us to be. It is only a matter of accepting and embracing your weaknesses. Let us thank the Lord for those people who appreciate us for who were are.

Now I am Wondering

Why it is so hard to express your own feeling to someone? Why do people keep in the deepest part of their heart the kind of love that is sincere and pure. Should we not be proud of it? Or we are just scared of rejection and critism?

 

Busy Tuesday!

Hello,

I have so much things to do today. I prayed for God’s leading and wisdom as I do all my pending reports today.

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I am glad to finish one of my reports today. I’ve already submitted it to my Supervisor subject for his further review and inclusion. I hope that this will be thoroughly reviewed and corrected prior to its released. I really want it to be corrected as early as possible to prevent any comments from other concerned parties.

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One of my reports has been corrected by the concerned department. We need to retrieve the reports from the recipient and came up with an ERRATA memo that will supersede the previous released memo.

I was reminded to be very very careful next time.

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I intend to extend my office hours today to finish my 5S reports.

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Thank you Lord for sustaining me this day! :)

 

It’s a Date!

Who said that I need a boyfriend to have a date? These guys proved you wrong. :)

Ed and Marc, my former officemates, treat me for a date in Gateway  Timezone. We played Basketball, drums and sang in one of the videoke rooms of the area.

 

Thank you so much guys. You made me happy.

A Heart’s Day Gift

Who said the heart’s day are only for couples? Karen and I received a very special gift from the kids in our neighborhood who attend the special tutorial class.

 

Thank you very much kids! Letters are more than enough for me as a gift. :)  I love to read letters.

I hope that you will enjoy the art of learning.

Young Love

“Anong gusto mo sa lalaki, Neng? “( What do you want from a guy, Neng). I heard that question from a friend when I was about eight or nine years old.

” Gusto ko mas matanda siya sa akin or kasing edad ko lang, hindi ako magkaka gusto sa lalaki na mas bata sa akin, kapag pinanganak siya ng lampas July 12, 1986, hindi ko na siya magiging crush”. (I want a guy who is older or with the same age as mine. I will never fall in love or will never like a man who was born after July 12, 1986).

July 12, 1986 was the date that I was born. I did not know what came into my mind and I answered that question with such requirement and conviction.

As I grew up and became more mature, our opinions and ideas on things will gradually change.

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I admit that I was so scared with the movie Shake, Rattle and Roll when I was young… it gave me several sleepless nights. The special show of “Magandang Gabi Bayan” during the All Souls day made me stay at home before the sun set.

Everything changes when I grow up. Now, I used to laugh on those movies.. I even the story boring and focus more on the main cast’s acting and delivery of script, the cinematography and music.

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I asked my grandpa one time, why the family with a big house considered as rich. I used to think that big houses make more 100 peso bill. I said it to my grandpa and he simply laughed at me. He just said that it was for me to find out.

Now, I understand. Seeing homeless people gave me the answer.

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Wisdom makes us wise but experience makes us a teacher. As we grow older, we learn more things, we understand and we find answers to our questions.

We change our opinion… we improve our thinking, we establish our own goals and we live everyday to learn more.

More today than Yesterday

We just have a pre-nup photoshoot last February 2 with our new friends :)

Kuya Dong and Monique are Marci’s friends (and also Seth’s grandparents) who will get married today. February 15.

Here are the photos:

January 15: Happy Birthday Papa Gene

 

The Birthday Cake

Pizza c/o Jay

 

For me, you are the best father in the world.

 

They say that I love movies about underdogs who always make it on the top at the end. Yes for sure. This is a story of every individual who wish to be heard.

Watching: Perfect Pitch

 

I love watching this as recommended by my good friend Mia. It is creating a new style in everything that you do.